He has saved me many times from anxiety

I watched a youtube video today made by one of Swedens most famous YouTuber, and she talked about anxiety. The video made me think about autumn 2015 and my exhaustion or burnout that was at its peak then. I was home with Wille September, and October 2015 and all focus was on him because if I slowed down, listened to my body or in other ways stopped, I would have had to change my whole life. Well, that happened whether I wanted it or not and today I am glad that it did. That life in some weird way stepped in and removed me from every person that wasn’t good for me and all the routines and structures I tried to hold on to. I was too tired to keep on fighting for something that drained me. Wille was a big part of my recovery which started in January 2016 and ended this summer 2017. Nothing and nobody including myself were more important than Wille, probably because it was an easier way to go than to explain to everyone what was going on.

He has saved me many times from anxiety. There were so many times I just dropped my bag in the hallway and went on a long walk, up to four, five hours in total silence just so that my heart would stop raising. Wille always there, happy and the worlds best company. Today I see why he became my whole life and why he means so much to me. He came when I needed him the most:) Sweetheart. I am so happy today, grateful for everything I have and how my life, day by day, gets more exciting. I do not rush anymore, If things are meant to happen then they will.

Now I am going to read chapter 3 and 11 in my grammar book and then I am done for today with the studying.

 

I think Pitbulls should be banned!

I have found the topic, don’t you agree? Had no idea that a few cities in Canada have banned Pitbulls. Some cities still hold the owner responsible for attacks though. I obviously do not agree with this but it is a good exercise.

The statistics (dog attacks) are down since they banned the breed and the citizens feel safer in their town so it really has to be a dangerous breed. What do you think of breeds like Pitbull? Are they dangerous? Would you like your city to ban the breed?

The cocker spaniel was once known to be the breed that most likely would bite its owner and they had a “cocker rage” reputation. But what I know no city has banned them. When I talk to older people about the breed they often say that they have had a cocker that wasn´t all clear in the head but breeders today have done a fantastic job to correct that temperamental error the breed once had.

 

Playing the devil’s advocate

I started the day at the gym, but it wasn’t the relaxing and “be in the moment” experience you wish. I could not stop thinking of The UN speech Donald Trump made in New York and as a little treat for everyone, Kim’s response. It was like watching two boys with dangerous toys call each other names. This situation terrifies me. Are they serious?

I had a new class yesterday, oral presentation and I am now looking for pods, articles or radio programs from USA, UK, Irland, New Zealand, Canada and Australia. Please comment if you have any suggestions. I have to find something from Canada to talk about next time we meet. Maybe play the devil’s advocate and speak about something I personally don´t agree with like legalize dogfight or let´s do more animal testing maybe. I don´t know if I am going to find such statements from Canada, but we all have our skeletons in the closet. Our teacher said that Sweden, Norway, and Canada have a lot in common and I can see that. Love their prime minister (Justin Trudeau), he comes across as a humble person and Swedish people have a tendency to like that. I did watch his speech too and he didn´t freak me out.

Wille has a short coat now. I have had such a bad conscience about his fur so I left it as it was because I didn´t know what to do with it. Then I spoke to one of my friends and she asked me if I am ever going to go on a dog show ever again with him and I replied with No. I am rather out in the woods with him then let him have a long beautiful coat that is just in the way of us having fun. His coat is a little bit too short now but I will find a good length eventually. The standard cocker spaniel coat length is just too much for me to handle.

Nothing much is happening here this weekend, I am going to study, yeah I know what a shocker and read a lot.

 

Congratulations, Norway and the Drawdown book

I couldn´t sleep last night, so I started to scroll thru social media to see if there were any good news out there in the world.

In Sweden, a prominent scientist won a prize as a “new thinker” (Link in swe) in regards to science without animal testing and not just that, one of Swedens most beloved writers invested a couple of million SEK in her company. Because he did so, he contributed to shine a light on this issue. If he invests, everybody else will follow. Thank you so much, Leif GW Persson. His words to the media that covered the story: What I like about this is that you do not hurt any animals. I just want to hug him for those words. Congratulations professor Malin Lindstedt at Lunds university for the reward (Link in swe).

EU is going hard at Norway for not stopping the dolphin slaughter (Link). Norway kills more dolphins than Japan does and not even Japan wants to buy the meat because of all the toxins that are in dolphin meat. The officials at the department in Japan that issued that ban did not think that one all way thru though if there are toxins in meat from Norway, there would probably be toxins in dolphin meat from Japan. But obviously, that is different. What does Norway do with all the meat then? They give it to the needy in Norway because nobody else wants to eat it. I do not get this at all, is it a strategy to kill all the needy people in Norway? Are they inconvenient for them? Well EU is not happy with Norway and plan to make sure that they can´t sell their dolphin meat to Europe. Hope they succeed.

I found this book, Drawdown The most comprehensive plan ever proposed to reverse global warming (Link) when I read Leonardo Dicaprio FN news (Link) yesterday. A must read:) Love solutions to big problems.

And also Pamela Andersson’s lovely letter (Link) to Kim Kardashian about her use of fur-coats. For me, a fur-coat is not a symbol of wealth but a symbol for a person that does not care.

 

Can you find Germany for me?

I am studying for an exam we have in two weeks and I´m trying to not freak out over everything that I´m supposed to know till then. When I feel tense like I´m doing now my only solution is to play with Wille. To just let loose and shake off the feeling of: this is going down the… My brain has never been good at receiving a ton of information that I just need to know. I need to process it and see the whole picture so it often takes me twice the time to get what I need to get to pass an exam and it is not just the exam either, I want to know this so it has to be permanently attached in my memory without me forgetting that I need to have a life too:)

During the same time, the vegan burgers were frying in the pan, I sat on the kitchen floor and hugged and kissed Wille. Stretched out at the same time I threw a ball he could chase and wrestle with him when we were fighting for the ball. Sounds ridiculous but it cheers me up and makes me forget about all the to do´s that I have to do, if just for a minute or two.

More people should play with their dogs. I think that it would be good for them.

Can you find Germany for me?

 

The weekend

I had such a wonderful weekend that ended with me, Ebba and Wille watching Two weeks notice in bed.

One thing that I love about being a dog owner is that you always have to go out with your dog even if you do not feel like it. I could have easily stayed in bed all day, watching movies, if it wasn´t for Wille. It was a well-deserved lazy day that I enjoyed immensely but it also made me sign up for a new gym membership. So, on Friday mornings people can find me in a yoga class or just laying down in the sauna doing pretty much nothing at all. Taking a much-needed pause from school books and animals. I have noticed that going on long walks with little or no core strength is bad on your back so I am going to focus on the core so that we can keep on walking.

 

Off leash training with your puppy

When Wille was a puppy I used to grab a hand full of treats and take it with me when we went out on a walk. Cocker spaniel as a breed wants to stay near to its owner but a puppy is a puppy and things are exciting and fun. I do have a few stories with me, in my office clothes, running after Wille, coffee cup in my left hand and handbag in the right screaming WILLLE!! Watching him disappear around the corner with the neighbor’s puppy Bella. I have never run that fast seven o´clock in the morning before. In heels! He did eventually stop, thank god, and wondered what I was yelling about.

So, to be sure that he would listen to me and not run away I gave him a treat now and again during our walks. I always saved one treat for when we were inside the house again. As a way to say: If you behave during our walks and follow me into the house after our walk you get a treat. I stopped doing this when Wille turned two this spring. We don´t need it anymore, he knows what I want from him even if he still loves people, to be outside and other dogs.

I had Maya here today and I started to do the same thing with her, so she and Wille could play and have fun but also make sure that she has her eyes on me. For me, it is the easiest way to teach a puppy that it is fun to be around me and what I want him or her to do. Just stick with me and you get a treat.

I also want to link to this petition that every European should sign (link). I don´t think that our environment can take that much more now and that we, every European, need to stand up for it. Please sign and share. Love Mirella, Wille, and Maya.

 

Life with two furry animals

I have to take some time and give Willes coat some love. It became too much a couple of months ago with all the combing and bathing that I just laid down the comb and didn´t look back. Okay, I have done some grooming but not as much as you need to when you have a dog that needs special attention when it comes to its fur. Willes coat is always on my mind, especially now when I don´t have time for it. Wille is not complaining, he is not that fond of getting his coat trimmed, he thinks that it´s boring to just stand there while I work around him. But it has to be done.

I also help Ebba with her coat. The life with long haired animals.

I got a sweet message yesterday from Rebekah that wanted to help her friend Susan rescue this cute stray dog that they have named Bouncer. I share the crowd funding page here with you guys. HERE IS THE LINK.

Good luck raising the money. <3

 

When you have an old dog or cat

Ebba has become her old self, thanks to the medication. She can move again and I feel that she has more energy which makes her happier. One advice I would like to give someone with an old cat or dog is to go to the vet once a year to just make sure that everything is okay and also so that the vet can tell you when it is time to say goodbye. I don´t know how I´m going to make that decision, when that day comes, without someone telling me that it is time. It has been her and me for twenty years next year. It´s crazy that she has never been on any medication or hurt her self during these years.

She is part Norwegian forest cat and part Swedish farm cat. They are supposed to be two healthy breeds.

 

I am very greatful so thank you

We have been on a long walk in the autumn sun and now I am going to open my books for tomorrows workshop. Time to spend some time with the ladies in my study group and I better be prepared:)

This week I have seen a big increase in the blog’s traffic, likings, and sharings. I reached a goal this week I have had for a while and I want to say thank you to all my blog readers and followers. There is not one that goes unnoticed and I appreciate every one of you. It is crazy to know that you all are spread around the world. I did think that I would lose my fellow countrymen when I switched to English but you are still here and right now at the very top of the list of readers with Norway and USA next. I do know that we Swedes rather read blogs that are written in Swedish so Thank you.

It has gone six months since I nervously switched from Swedish to English and I have learned so much during this time. At first, I wrote the post in Swedish but then translated it and had to look up the spelling on EVERY word before I wrote something. Today I just write and check spellings and grammar afterward. I am still doing mistakes, it is not perfect, but my writing has improved since the day I started. You just have to start and figure things out as you go.

I wish you all a nice Sunday.